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First update in 2009!!!!

I am so glad this year is here and the other one is over and done with. 2008 I guess will have to be one of the most outrageous, crazy, and memorable years of my 20 years of existence. I honestly have to say that I learned a lot about myself and unmasked that individual that kept of evading me at my own internal masquerade party.

Let me recount what happened in the past year in a maybe random order:

*Realized that I actually do have a heart and that it was foolish of me to live a scarecrow of a life without one.

* I learned to treat everyone with a heart equally because we all do have a heart and it does pump blood and it’s all the same blood too. It’s all equal blood. No one is better or worse than anybody else. Everybody has a right to live and the right to love.

* Before this year, I would set my eyes on something and I would get it. This year I was introduced to the reality of how that does not always work. And the reality of dealing with the repercussions in a manner where I seemed to be perfectly okay and hunky dorey while at the same time I was crying on the inside.

* I learned that after heartbreak, there is still more of life to be left to live and the importance of smiling on the inside and more importantly making other people smile. It’s an amazing feeling to see other people smile after hearing yourself say the lamest things. Smiles are beautiful. Keep smiling.

* I learned that the end of a bad night there is always a new day ready for you to start over.

* I learned that it’s okay to go on impromtu adventures and to take as many chances or risks you can because you’re only young & irresponsible once upon a time. Plus the adrenaline rush one gets from excitement is stimulating for something I bet.

* I learned how important it was to stand up for what I believe in and defend others who were not able to defend themselves even if it costs me something as valuable as my life. I’m not scared of him anymore but I’m still cautious for how he treats himself because I know a lot more than he does.

* I learned that scars gradually do fade and that everything can be good again and back to normal.

*Realized that stories about nightingales and grasshoppers are the most beautiful ones. 3 oceans can never be deep enough or far apart. And my head can never be so high up in the clouds. But yet I feel like the most blessed and beautiful person in the world. And that keeps me going…and smiling.

*Discovered there is some rationality behind the random song and dance sequence in Bollywood movies. But ask me to explain, I don’t know how. Hai haal to dil kaa tang tang. True that.

* Learned to laugh with my heart rather than with my throat.

* Was involved in relationships but none were of romantic nature. Just intense relationships.

*Learned to appreciate all forms of art especially stuff of lyrical nature and displayed appreciation through micro-blogging techniques.

* Went to ACL and it was one of the best experiences of my life.

* Got to meet a real author and actress Mia Kirshner who I felt was most like me.

* Learned how to make meaningless small talk but still felt great for making small talk. It’s just one of those things that are needed in life. To be around civilization.

* Finally overcame writer’s block and submitted my real life story to Glamour.

* Did a 5k

* Drank alcohol for the first time and did not enjoy it. Was rather disappointed. Smoked for the first time but thought it was gross.

* Pulled an all nighter at the PCL. Most fun I had in a library.

Okay that is it for now. I am super sleepy at the moment. Will update later with a short story review. Right now I’m listening to some sappy Bollywood music because I just feel like it (these days I’m always feeling like it…oh no I’m melting!…but I don’t care) and I plan on dreaming into a restful slumber with those beautiful metaphors dancing around in my subconscience.